What made you stop being an addict?

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

Why are black people harassed more by police officers?

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

Are there any more 'nun' jokes?

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

Is the Shia claim true that Imam Ali was born inside the Kaaba?

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Which one is better to guys, boobs or butt?

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Read that again ☝️

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

Who has experienced what they called a happy accident (bestiality)?

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

How can you know if they are your twin flame and not limerence or obsession?

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

Can it be true that people know your name, not your story, they’ve heard what you’ve done, but not what you’ve been through, so take their opinions of you with a grain of salt?

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

What is a common thought that keeps people up at night? Why do some people experience this?

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Why am I totally different than others? Why do I have a problem with my basic knowledge about society and reality? Why am I dumb and stupid?

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

Just keep trying

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

Do you agree with the characterization of Trump's trial as a "modern day Salem witch trial"? Why or why not?

And I can also talk to them now.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

This was February 2019.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

I did it in my administrator's office.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.